My Little Miracle

OK lets see. I left off where my little baby was still with me growing and bouncing around.

I was on bed rest  for the whole pregnancy. I re read the whole twilight  saga and cried. No surprise there. My hormones we so crazy high. I cried allot. I know this will sound very weird to a bunch of people who don't understand.  My sister brought me some holy dirt from a church in New Mexico. It came with instructions on what to do and how to do it. I decided I would give it a try. I went outside  It was a very Warm OK Hot Morning.  I took my Blanket and laid on the grass outside in my Back yard. I became very in tuned to my surrounding. I listened to the birds Chirping as I tried to drown out the sound of the traffic near by. I let the warm of the sun embrace me as I slow drifted into a calm trance. I become very focused on what I was going to prey for. I did as the instructions stated. I rubbed this very soft dirt all over my tummy. After words I just laid their hoping for the best. My next DR. appointment wasn't for a few more days. When Tuesday came around it was time for me to go to the DR. My Husband as sweet as he is always went with me.  my wonderful In-Laws were always willing to help watch the kids when ever we had an appointment. As I walked into my Doctors office. I signed my self in. I would then go and sit on the pink office chairs and shake like crazy.  I was so nerves to hear what they had to tell me or what I might see. they were going to do another ultrasound because the last time I was there my SCH was 3X bigger then the Baby and they gave me 50% chance at having a living baby at the end of this.... As I sit there holding my Husbands hand and shaking like crazy they call my name. My heart stops. A flood of emotions run threw me. what if they tell me there is nothing their anymore but a tiny little body that no longer has any sign of life. my husband grabs my hand and helps me up. He looks at me and tells me whatever the outcome is we still have each other. my emotional rise to an all time high as I fight back the tears. I walk back so they can get my dreaded weight. For these ultrasounds you have to have a full bladder. I remember walking back to the ultrasound room and trying not to pee my pants. I lay down and the ultrasound tech comes into the room. As she places the warm gel on my bell she tells me that she if the baby cor operated I may be able to tell you the gender. I tell her with out a doubt We want to know. As she places the device on my tummy you can see this little baby moving around kicking and flicking it little leg and arm's around. It's sitting their spread eagle. She looks at me and said well it defiantly wants you to know what it is. know me already having four Girls knows what a little girl looks like in an ultrasound. So I knew  that this little Miracle growing inside me know is a Little Baby Boy!!!! We were floored. I believe I was more excited then my Husband. Then she looked for the SCH. To all of our surprise it was getting much smaller the Baby was so much bigger then it and she said the their is no blood flowing to the SCH which is a very good sign. It means that it is just old blood that my body would consume.BUT I still had a low lying placenta which they were hoping it would move up on it's own . So for about Eight Months I Lay in bed keeping this little Miracle Man of mine where he needs to be. Every night I would prey that If anything was to  happened that it would happen  to me and not the baby,and that he was to stay inside me until he was able to survive on his own.

 Well as the time went by very slowly I was able to make it to 34.5 weeks . I always joked with my girls that there brother would be born on 10/10/10 . I remember it so well I had my family down for the weekend. my sister in law had giving me a Baby shower. it was so much fun with them here that when Sunday came around I didn't want to say goodbye. after my family Left I decided to take a nap I think I slept for three hours I woke up and my favorite show was on The Amazing Race. I laid their until it was over and decided to go find my husband so he could go to the store to get me something to snack on. He was only gone for 15 min. I'm not joking when I say this. As soon as he walked threw the door i felt a flush of fluid coming out of me I told my Husband either my water just broke or I'm bleeding again. I run to the bath and to my surprise I'm covered in a Hugh amount of blood I tell my Husband. He frantically gets all the kids out of bed calls his mom to meet us at the hospital so she can take the kids from us. and i change my clothes into non bloody PJ pants. we live about 20-30 min from the Hospital depending on traffic But at this time a night on a Sunday there is not traffic to be seen my Husband runs a couple of red light after making sure no cars our coming and gets me to the hospital in record time. I don't feel so nervous because my Little Miracle Has the Hiccups so I know he is doing OK We go into Labor and delivery and give them all my info and they set me up to the machine the Baby is doing amazingly well. His heart beat is in the 145 range so they are not to worried yet! I'm bleeding a little. Now that I'm just laying in bed I feel fluid coming out but their not to worried because it's clear. I ask if that means my water has broke and she says she can't tell because of the bleeding the strips wont give her a accurate reading. I'm in a lot of pain from the contractions and she orders me a ultrasound and gives me some pain meds threw my IV. When the Ultra sound tech comes In. I ask her if i need a full bladder because I need to pee. She tells me No and my Husband helps me to the bathroom. as I get out of bed I have blood dripping out of me and I sit down on the potty and a crap load of HUGH  BLOOD CLOTS come flowing out.  I Yell at my husband to go tell the nurse and the next thing I know is their is about seven Nurses in my room one helps me from the bathroom to the bed to help prep me for an  EMERGENCY C- Section.

Starting something new!

Ok, I'm farely new to this whole Blogging Business and have decided to take a risk and show my life for all the mishaps and joy that come along with being a Mommy a working mom at that!

I will just give a little inside to my life for my first post and see how thing go from their. I was a teen mom and when I say I was a teen I mean a YOUNGE TEEN. I got pregnante with my First child Nicquel one of my pretty little girls, When I was 14.  gave Birth to her at age 15 and decided to keep her. As hard as it was I managed to do It all. Go to school graduate from High school and work a job. I can say that there is noway I would've been able to do it with out my family. My Mom and Sisters were a big help to me.

I met my Husband when Nicquel was 18months Needless to say my relationship with Nicquel's dad didn't work out. But do they ever when you are that old?... We married  when i was 19 and started having kids early. I always said I wanted 4 kids by the time I was 25. Well I ended up have 5 kids by the time I was 25!!! Next up on my list of kids came my little profesor we call her Kenzleigh she is 6. She is one smartie pants she is at the top of her class in kindergarten she is already reading at a first grade level YES!! this is one proud Momma .

The Next to welcome us with her presence Was Addison My little Addie Pie I like to call her. she is 5. My Husband and I call her our little sister we never had. If my husband and I kiss in front of her she tells us "I'm going to tell Grandpa!" It just too cute for words.

Next one whom we thought would be our last was Autumn she is 3 And if you ask her what her name is she'll tell you "It's Autumn Bear." When I was pregnante with Autumn we decided not to find out what the sex was. It was the best exsperience that I had being pregnant. I thought for sure she was a boy. to our surprise when the doctor pulled her out and showed her to me over that little c-section cover I was surprised to see that she was a girl. Which ment I needed to find a different name for her because I was going to name her Kyle! But the most uncanny thing happend my Husband asked me what name I like and at the same time we both said AUTUMN! So that how she got her name. it was ment for her we tell her.

Last but not least My Little miracle Boy Entered this world against all odds!! I was surprised to find out I was pregnante with my little man. I had quite the pregnancy with Him. when i found out I was pregnant. I like all other was so excited for one he was going to be born on my DAD's birthday which I thought Was pretty dang cool. I told my family and made my Doctors appointment and could wait! when my 8 week into my pregnancy I stared to bleed. I went to the doctors. they did the regular routine. He told me I was still pregnante but when it came time for a heart beat check there was nothing. I was devistated. My doctor did an ultra sound the baby was in there.  It measured the same amount of weeks as I was which was 8 wks but there was no sign of life. they did blood work told me to go home and they would call me. well, I of cousre was a nerves wreck until the phone rang. They said my hormone level's had doubled which ment my pregnancy was still a go. And that he would see me in a week to see if the baby had a heart beat! well a week went by and my Dr. appointment came and went. the dr. went to check for a heart beat there was nothing again! I was heartbroken At this point I'm 9 wks my baby should have a heartbeat by now you would think? they did a little ultrasound this time they found a little bit of blood supply going to the baby's heart which gave it a little pulse of 60 bpm which they said could be a start of a heartbeat or just my own pulse, they sent me home with little hope that i will welcome a cute baby into this world. My family came down to visit me and decided to go to vegas. I thought I could use some cheering up! Wrong that trip changed my world. I remember sitting at Denny's on the strip. and having to go to the bathroom when I went to use the Bathroom I had to run to a stall because I was bleeding so bad that it felt like I was peeing Blood! Yes Blood! I made my wonderful husband drive me to Saint George's Hospital because I didn't know what the vegas Hospital would be like. We drove the two hrs back. I was bleededing really bad that i left a trail from my car to the ER. they took my information and they said they would do an ultrasound to see if I had miscarried. Well when I went for my Ultra sound there was a heartbeat of 114 bpm I was floored. they told me I had a large subchorionic hematoma which was causing all my bleeding. they sent me home told me to do 100% bed rest until I see my dr on monday. Well that was Saturday. Sunday Morning around 2:00 am I woke my husband up because I was bleeding really bad  again. I was sitting in the bathroom in a ton of pain, my ears where ringing, my eye sight was going black and I had passed a big clot that wouldn't dissolve in the water I was sure I had lost the baby this time. I told my Husband if someone was to go into our house and see all this blood they would think you killed me. LOL. My husband took me to the hospitail and right away they took me back to the critical area because i had lost so much blood that my pulse 100+ bpm. they told me that i had lost my little baby. I was so devistated I just wanted to go home a lay in my bed and cry. they told me to follow up with my dr in two day's and just take it easy so that's what i did i layed in bed read some twilight and tried not to think about what just happend. Well tuesday came and it was time to go to the doctors. So he can confurm what I had already Been told but didn't want to belive! When I went back the doctor did a exam on me and told me that I was STILL PREGNANTE !!! Yes that right the baby was still there they did an ultrasound and my little Miracle was there heartbeat and all moving it's little limbs it was starting to grow! I was so happy I called everyone I knew and told them my little miracle is still with me. We thought for sure we were going to have a girl because we already had 4 girls we must be destined for Girls we were going to name her Hope or Faith because that what this little baby had givin us.....   Well I will have to finish my story about how Jaxson came into my life a little later I need to take some kiddies to the Park and eat some Ice cream. Until next time.....