My Little Miracle

OK lets see. I left off where my little baby was still with me growing and bouncing around.

I was on bed rest  for the whole pregnancy. I re read the whole twilight  saga and cried. No surprise there. My hormones we so crazy high. I cried allot. I know this will sound very weird to a bunch of people who don't understand.  My sister brought me some holy dirt from a church in New Mexico. It came with instructions on what to do and how to do it. I decided I would give it a try. I went outside  It was a very Warm OK Hot Morning.  I took my Blanket and laid on the grass outside in my Back yard. I became very in tuned to my surrounding. I listened to the birds Chirping as I tried to drown out the sound of the traffic near by. I let the warm of the sun embrace me as I slow drifted into a calm trance. I become very focused on what I was going to prey for. I did as the instructions stated. I rubbed this very soft dirt all over my tummy. After words I just laid their hoping for the best. My next DR. appointment wasn't for a few more days. When Tuesday came around it was time for me to go to the DR. My Husband as sweet as he is always went with me.  my wonderful In-Laws were always willing to help watch the kids when ever we had an appointment. As I walked into my Doctors office. I signed my self in. I would then go and sit on the pink office chairs and shake like crazy.  I was so nerves to hear what they had to tell me or what I might see. they were going to do another ultrasound because the last time I was there my SCH was 3X bigger then the Baby and they gave me 50% chance at having a living baby at the end of this.... As I sit there holding my Husbands hand and shaking like crazy they call my name. My heart stops. A flood of emotions run threw me. what if they tell me there is nothing their anymore but a tiny little body that no longer has any sign of life. my husband grabs my hand and helps me up. He looks at me and tells me whatever the outcome is we still have each other. my emotional rise to an all time high as I fight back the tears. I walk back so they can get my dreaded weight. For these ultrasounds you have to have a full bladder. I remember walking back to the ultrasound room and trying not to pee my pants. I lay down and the ultrasound tech comes into the room. As she places the warm gel on my bell she tells me that she if the baby cor operated I may be able to tell you the gender. I tell her with out a doubt We want to know. As she places the device on my tummy you can see this little baby moving around kicking and flicking it little leg and arm's around. It's sitting their spread eagle. She looks at me and said well it defiantly wants you to know what it is. know me already having four Girls knows what a little girl looks like in an ultrasound. So I knew  that this little Miracle growing inside me know is a Little Baby Boy!!!! We were floored. I believe I was more excited then my Husband. Then she looked for the SCH. To all of our surprise it was getting much smaller the Baby was so much bigger then it and she said the their is no blood flowing to the SCH which is a very good sign. It means that it is just old blood that my body would consume.BUT I still had a low lying placenta which they were hoping it would move up on it's own . So for about Eight Months I Lay in bed keeping this little Miracle Man of mine where he needs to be. Every night I would prey that If anything was to  happened that it would happen  to me and not the baby,and that he was to stay inside me until he was able to survive on his own.

 Well as the time went by very slowly I was able to make it to 34.5 weeks . I always joked with my girls that there brother would be born on 10/10/10 . I remember it so well I had my family down for the weekend. my sister in law had giving me a Baby shower. it was so much fun with them here that when Sunday came around I didn't want to say goodbye. after my family Left I decided to take a nap I think I slept for three hours I woke up and my favorite show was on The Amazing Race. I laid their until it was over and decided to go find my husband so he could go to the store to get me something to snack on. He was only gone for 15 min. I'm not joking when I say this. As soon as he walked threw the door i felt a flush of fluid coming out of me I told my Husband either my water just broke or I'm bleeding again. I run to the bath and to my surprise I'm covered in a Hugh amount of blood I tell my Husband. He frantically gets all the kids out of bed calls his mom to meet us at the hospital so she can take the kids from us. and i change my clothes into non bloody PJ pants. we live about 20-30 min from the Hospital depending on traffic But at this time a night on a Sunday there is not traffic to be seen my Husband runs a couple of red light after making sure no cars our coming and gets me to the hospital in record time. I don't feel so nervous because my Little Miracle Has the Hiccups so I know he is doing OK We go into Labor and delivery and give them all my info and they set me up to the machine the Baby is doing amazingly well. His heart beat is in the 145 range so they are not to worried yet! I'm bleeding a little. Now that I'm just laying in bed I feel fluid coming out but their not to worried because it's clear. I ask if that means my water has broke and she says she can't tell because of the bleeding the strips wont give her a accurate reading. I'm in a lot of pain from the contractions and she orders me a ultrasound and gives me some pain meds threw my IV. When the Ultra sound tech comes In. I ask her if i need a full bladder because I need to pee. She tells me No and my Husband helps me to the bathroom. as I get out of bed I have blood dripping out of me and I sit down on the potty and a crap load of HUGH  BLOOD CLOTS come flowing out.  I Yell at my husband to go tell the nurse and the next thing I know is their is about seven Nurses in my room one helps me from the bathroom to the bed to help prep me for an  EMERGENCY C- Section.